Why do I do this to myself

Like many men my age, and younger, I play video games. The one game that is the bane of my existence is League of Legends. I have installed and uninstalled this game currently 2 times. I am back for the third time because I feel like I have unfinished business. What is this unfinished business you ask? Well I’ll tell you but pull up a chair and sit back.

League of Legends (LoL) is what’s called a MOBA (multiplayer online battle arena). There are 5 people per team and the objective is take the other teams base. Pretty simple right? I’d agree but having played this game for many hours it’s not! I should add to this that there is a ranking system as well. 

The ranks go from bronze 5, the lowest of the low, all the way to challenger which is right at being considered a professional. The majority of people who play this game find themselves in bronze, silver or gold. As I mentioned I’m in bronze 5 and have been for quite sometime. It’s hard to get out of this level. There are people who don’t think that it is but it is. Now a lot of it is about improving yourself and your game play. However there are 9 other players on the rift the control Ute to this equation as well. And this is where this simple game becomes not so simple. It becomes very frustrating.

So this is where I find myself. And you may be asking yourself why do I even bother to frustrate myself with this game? I ask myself as well. I’ll never be challenger or diamond but there is something in my head that keeps telling me I’m not this bad. All I want to do is climb out of bronze and I to silver. Once I have reached this I will be done and move on.

Have a great Sunday everyone. 

Tossing it out the window

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted here and that, unsurprisingly, is because things haven’t been going well with the fat/weight loss. One time so far I’ve seen below 220 but I’m mostly hanging around 221. My waist measurement device is out of batteries so I don’t know where I am there.

To that end I have been getting up and working out which is a positive step. Eating has been hit and miss and I know that needs to be my focus.

As such, something isn’t working so next week we begin another experiment to see if it will work for getting us into shape. Fasting will be done, I’m not sure what days yet but perhaps Tuesday and Thursday. Additionally steady state cardio is going to be replaced by kettlebells and more of a high intensity type of workout. I’ve been doing steady state running for the past couple of years and it doesn’t appear to work for me. I enjoy it but it’s not serving it’s purpose.

So it’s time to up the intensity for workouts and to really try and buckle down on the diet. I don’t feel like I have a horrible diet. There are good days and bad days. Overall I feel like I have more good than bad so that leaves me counting calories which I loathe. But it needs to be done so that I have a better idea of where I’m at and what is causing the issue. 

Here’s to hoping that this gets us moving in the right direction. 

Hope your weight loss goals are going well.

I want to be proud of this country

Yesterday was the women’s march/protest across the nation. And I was proud of it. However as I got to thinking about it I started to wonder if these protests were against Trump and all he’s done (or said) or were they because Hillary lost. I suppose both of those are the same and I’m not expressing them correctly but if in fact those protests were for either one of those reasons and not something grander I feel like they were a waste of time.

I do not agree with Trump and I did not agree with Hillary. I voted third party and would have voted no confidence if it was an option on the ballot. Regardless of my vote Trump was elected and we have him as president the next 4 years. And I feel like the general consensus is that we already know how things are going to go and what he is going to do and the man has only been in office for a couple of days. I know if I was already judged for a job I hadn’t done it would be a hard trek.

If this is what it takes to get this nation to agree on something and get us moving in a direction we can all agree on then I’m for that movement. However my heart tells me that in four years time the fires will have burned down and we will find ourselves right back here again. Perhaps on the other side but here again wondering how something like this could happen. 

Week 2 -progress and feeling good!

This week was a good week in many aspects but progress in waist measurement and weight seems to have stalled for one reason or another. It’s bothersome but something I’m really trying to no concentrate on as it will get me down. I’m taking the mindset that fat is being burned from other areas that I’m not measuring. On the flip side I’m not sure where I’d be adding muscle!

On the plus side I’ve felt really great. I’m assuming this is due to fasting but I’m not really sure. There was one day in particular that I felt like I had a high while fasting.

So to recap. I got 3 days of fasting and two days of working out. My workouts right now are just walking on a treadmill at a high speed. I don’t know if I need to change that to something more intense. For now I will leave it as is.

Starting weight 1/2/17 – 223.8

Weight as of 1/16/17 – 221.2

Starting waist measurement 1/2/17 – 41.8

Waist measurement as of 1/16/17 – 40.9

The one thing I’ll concentrating on this week is good choices.

How did your week go?

Week 1 complete – can do better!

So I finished up week 1 of this journey this morning. While the numbers look good I know I can do better.

First things first. I failed on working out twice last week. I had intentions of doing a workout on Thursday morning but when I went to bed on Wednesday I was just beat so I slept in. This week two workouts will happen.

On the eating aspect, of trying to eat healthier foods, I honestly didn’t pay that much attention so I’m trying to watch that this week. 

I think the first week of the year is a gimme on weight loss and having said that I lost this week.

Starting Weight: 223.8

Weight after week 1: 222.2

Starting waist measurement: 41.5

Waist measurement after week 1: 40.9

So progress but it’s what I would expect everyone goes thru the first week of the year! This 2nd week will be the real test on where things shake out.

Fasting was easy last week and was easy today. Three days a week seems good and I hope that I can see results with that.

How are your goals going for the new year?

Jumping on that bandwagon

I know a lot of people that think new year’s resolutions are a gimmick and why do you need the start of the year to begin something new? Despite this I always tend to have some sort of new year’s resolution. And like most people I end up forgetting about it rather quickly. So I’m going to try something new, for me, this year.

I’m only going to concentrate on a month at a time and try and reach those goals in a month. 

My goals for the month of January are:

Keep my waist below 40.5

Get weight beneath 220

Fast 3 times a week

Workout 2 times a week – even if this is just walking in the treadmill.

It looks like a lot but it’s not really. Some of these I’ve accomplished before and hopefully it won’t be that hard to get back into the groove. 

So starting measurements as of January 2nd are: weight 223.8 and waist measurement of: 41.5 (this measurement varies quite a bit I’ve discovered)

What are your New year’s resolutions?


I think most of the time obsession has a negative connotation. However I can see that there is a positive side to it as well. Even if it’s really small!

I find that on certain things I get obsessed with them. This whole weight loss/blood sugar/high blood pressure is currently one of them. I try and figure out everything that I can hoping some key, magic perhaps, will click and I will be healthy again. Perhaps that will happen but the reality is that this is going to be something I probably have to deal with the rest of my life. Maybe not be as obsessed with tracking everything but watching some of those things and being aware of them. So it’s positive that I can and do dive into these things.

On the negative side is the fact that I reach a point where I just drop everything and go back to what I know is normal. Sometimes this is after a couple of weeks sometimes this is after 18 months. Hopefully over whatever time I’ve formed some good habits so it’s not quite as bad but sometimes that is not the case.

Overall I wish I could find some middle ground where I’m watching it but am not so bloody obsessed with it.

Have a great rest of the year everyone.

Other tools I’m using

Just to recap this week so far. Weight has hardly moved. This morning it was sitting at 223.4 which is about where it has been. My belly measurement was 41 inches which I feel like is a little progress.

One of the other tools I’m using to hopefully shed this fat is fasting. Now I think you are all thinking I’m a bit cookoo but there is a lot of science and research to back it up (and more coming). I am mostly, at this time, doing 18 hour fasts a couple, maybe 3 times a week. I’m also coming at this that diabetes runs in my family and I really need to make sure that my insulin gets to high. Fasting I believe can accomplish that. I’ll talk about this more as time goes on.

Another tool I’m using due to the for mentioned diabetes in my family is blood sugar readings. I don’t know if there is any correlation to high blood sugar and weight but I have read there is a correlation to heart disease. So I’m watching it and trying to learn what works and what doesn’t!

Lastly is exercise. The past 1.5 years I’ve considered myself a runner. I haven’t had much success with it, from a racing/PR aspect, so I’ve stepped back from it recently. First I need to get. Back into some sort of routine as I’ve been down with a cold. Probably start on the 26th and go from there. Contrary to running long distances.This will be bodyweight exercises, kettlebells, some sprinting and a whole lot of stretching (I feel like I’m as stiff as a board most days..Sitting in a chair for 8 hours doesn’t help!)

So there you have it. With any luck it will get me where I need to be and hopefully by my 40th birthday!

Merry Christmas!

Weighing yourself sucks!

I think most of us would agree that weighing yourself sucks. Oh it’s great when the weight is going like a locamotive downhill (hello keto/low carb!) but when the scale moves up and you don’t know why it just sucks. No way around it!

Despite this issue it’s the way that we measure progress and one in which I’ll be using in this journey. But it’s not going to be my only way of measuring progress. 

The other way I intend on measuring is by watching my waist to height ratio. This number should be as close to .50 as possible. My current ratio is .57 so I have aways to go. I suspect that as this ratio improves my weight will be going down as well. If my waist goes down but my weight doesn’t it means I’m adding muscle! 

So I plan on watching my weight but I’m going to try and not focus on it as much because it can be discouraging but I think it’s a tool to use to see what works and what doesn’t! From yesterday to today I gained back 1.5 lbs! I really didn’t think I ate that.much yesterday but I probably had a bit more carbs than normal which I think made me retain water. My blood sugar was also higher than what I would like to see. 

Don’t be discouraged by the scale not showing what you want. The body, for most of us, is a mystery and we spend a lot of time trying to figure it out. Keep moving forward and get those goals!

Fit at 40?

A few years back I had my annual Dr appointment and I was diagnosed with high blood pressure. Probably a lot to do with my job at the time but that job is gone and the high blood pressure is still there. 
Per the Drs recommendation I started running. I got up to running 4 days a week and while the blood pressure came down a bit it was never consistent. A lot of it is heredity. It runs in my family. 

I feel like much of the issue with my high blood pressure has to do with carrying around extra weight. Despite all the running I did my weight varied very little. Currently I’m sitting at 223.5 which is a bit over the low I had while running which was 215.

Somewhere this fall my motivation for running went away. I believe that was a combination of turning 39 and going thru a mini bout of depression and realizing that the running was not accomplishing what I needed it to accomplish. 

So here I am at the end of the year trying to figure out where I need to go to lose some weight and hopefully get my blood pressure down and be healthy for my family. I’d like to get this all done before I turn 40.

My hope is that by posting here it will motivate me, and perhaps others who stop by, to get to where I need to be. This is going to be a fluid goal so nothing g hard and fast. The main goal is to lose weight and get my blood pressure down.