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Facebook is stalking me!

Around the first of the year I decided that I wasn’t going to spend as much time on Facebook.  I just wasn’t finding any value in it.  I didn’t kill my account but I told myself I was only going to check in once a week.  And to date that has been the case.  Once a week for maybe 15 minutes and then I’d sign out of my account again.

Somewhere along the line I gave Facebook my phone number.  I don’t remember if this was on purpose of if it was voluntary.  I suspect I had to for something. But this has turned into something bad.  About once a day now, for some reason, Facebook sends me a text that reminds me of something someone has posted on Facebook.  It’s as if I’ve reached some point where I don’t visit Facebook enough so they are trying to entice me with text messages.  So far I haven’t given in to these messages.  But what it will do is make me kill my account.

Just something to note.  While I don’t find much use with Facebook I do find other uses for social media.  Specifically with Twitter I find much more value out of it.  Weird since the people I follow on Twitter are not people I know.  More than anything I’m following “experts” in the fields that I enjoy following! Just an interesting observation.

Work

While I consider myself a good worker, I struggle with work.  Odd you may think, but let me explain.

It was about 2000 when I first remember the drive to create something great on the internet.  I don’t know if, at that time, it was so that I could try and be a bazillionaire or what (for what it’s worth I wanted to create a high school sports site).  From there I think it just kept growing here and there.

Somewhere along the line I came to think that well since mom and dad were self employed maybe  I should be as well and I’d be much happier if I was self employed.  But wait…mom and dad didn’t have health insurance or retirement.  They had to work thru those sick days and it was a struggle at times.  Maybe that wasn’t such a good idea, but that being self employed still sticks in the back of my mind.

In addition to wanting to make boat loads of money and be self employed I think, for my generation, or perhaps just in the field I’ve worked in, I feel like if you don’t have some sort of side gig making you some extra money your doing it wrong.  Or if you’re not hopping from exotic location to exotic location working for 2 minutes a day your doing it wrong.

Lastly working in the newspaper business for a fair amount of my career so far probably has not been the best.  I never chose to work in that industry because it was my calling and I wanted to hold the government accountable (funny that I now work for the government).  I chose it because it paid the bills and at the start it was a good wage.  But over time that pay degraded, or my thoughts of what was good pay was upped, and I felt like I was under appreciated.

Bosses also didn’t help.  I don’t think, until now, I’ve ever had a boss that has been for the employees.  It’s always been about the bottom line.  My current boss, for all of her faults, is for the employees as much as she can be. She understands, I feel.

I’m coming to grips with all of these thoughts that have been haunting me the past 20 years.  They still poke their nasty heads out, but I’m feeling like I have better control over them.  I think a big part of it has to do with being grateful for what I do have.  Yeah I haven’t had a pay raise in years and even took a pay cut.  However I do have a job with pretty good benefits.  When I stop and really start to focus on what I don’t have, that is when I get down and get pissed at work and wonder if I could do it better on my own.  I’m not saying that maybe I won’t have a side gig that makes a bit of money, but I’m also happy not having it and thinking about it all the time.

I don’t know if these feelings are a generational thing, but I kind of think it might be.  I look at some people I know who are a big older and they, to my knowledge, are not trying to create a side gig or hustle.  They are just enjoying the time with their family.

Lastly this leaves us with the current work situation. As I’ve mentioned with many members of the family I feel as I’ve I’ve gone from one side of the pendulum where it was crisis all the time (newspaper; perhaps also my view point) to the other side where at times I have very little to do and it borders on boredom. My feelers will be out there this year looking at other opportunities and maybe something will come from it. Perhaps this is where God has me and where I will be until he says differently. I don’t know. I do know that staying here at the state for the long term is probably not doable (perhaps in another position it might be).

I’m curious to hear other thoughts on work and I suspect as this year goes by I will revisit this issue.

Writing 2018

I’d like to think that in 2017 I’ve done a fair amount of writing. Most of it’s just journalling, but it’s writing none the less. As we head into 2018 I want to write even more!

So I hope as we head into this new year that I’ll be writing more here. I’m not really sure what I’ll be writing about, it might be journalling or it might be fiction or it might be random other stuff that happens to tickle my fancy at that time.

I’m putting this up to hold myself accountable and to hopefully have you hold me accountable as well (if anyone is still visiting this site!) My goal is simply to have one post a week for a total of 52 posts. On the flip side of wanting to be an author of some sort I’m the absolute worst at keeping anything going long term. Great starter of things but horrible at finishing stuff. My ultimate goal would be that this becomes a habit and something I don’t have think about. It becomes natural.

Hopefully some of what I’ve written about you will find interesting. Perhaps not!

Lastly everyone that currently has an account on the site has been set to an author account. So if by some chance you feel the need to write feel free to do so! (I can help you get started in this interface I you need help)

Happy 2018!

Trail running – July 2017

Two days later I’m still sore from a almost 7 mile trail run at Curt Gowdy. My feet hurt. My lower legs hurt when I go down the stairs but not going up! It was not my intent to do 7 miles but my communication with the guy I was running with was apparently not on point and I wasn’t going to argue. We were just on a run in the woods. And I forgot my water and it was hot.
The route we ended up running was a lot of the 8 mile race course that I ran last year. Its down hill for a bit, but then it starts climbing from there where it reaches the peak of that area. To give you an idea of what it’s like, it is like the Turtle Rock trail but with more climbing on it (maybe not as high bit I’m not sure). After climbing we then ‘bored’ our way back down to Crow Creek and across it for another climb, but this one a lot more gradual. 

Besides forgetting my water bottle, which won’t happen again, it was a pretty uneventful run. I do not remember being this sore after my 8 mile race last year but I was also running a lot more miles (not that many). I’ve signed up for the four mile race this year but I am contemplating changing to the 8 for more of a challenge! Despite the soreness I wish that I could get out onto the trails a bit more. Despite the heavy breathing and the pain, at times, it’s great to be out in nature.