I think most of the time obsession has a negative connotation. However I can see that there is a positive side to it as well. Even if it’s really small!

I find that on certain things I get obsessed with them. This whole weight loss/blood sugar/high blood pressure is currently one of them. I try and figure out everything that I can hoping some key, magic perhaps, will click and I will be healthy again. Perhaps that will happen but the reality is that this is going to be something I probably have to deal with the rest of my life. Maybe not be as obsessed with tracking everything but watching some of those things and being aware of them. So it’s positive that I can and do dive into these things.

On the negative side is the fact that I reach a point where I just drop everything and go back to what I know is normal. Sometimes this is after a couple of weeks sometimes this is after 18 months. Hopefully over whatever time I’ve formed some good habits so it’s not quite as bad but sometimes that is not the case.

Overall I wish I could find some middle ground where I’m watching it but am not so bloody obsessed with it.

Have a great rest of the year everyone.

Other tools I’m using

Just to recap this week so far. Weight has hardly moved. This morning it was sitting at 223.4 which is about where it has been. My belly measurement was 41 inches which I feel like is a little progress.

One of the other tools I’m using to hopefully shed this fat is fasting. Now I think you are all thinking I’m a bit cookoo but there is a lot of science and research to back it up (and more coming). I am mostly, at this time, doing 18 hour fasts a couple, maybe 3 times a week. I’m also coming at this that diabetes runs in my family and I really need to make sure that my insulin gets to high. Fasting I believe can accomplish that. I’ll talk about this more as time goes on.

Another tool I’m using due to the for mentioned diabetes in my family is blood sugar readings. I don’t know if there is any correlation to high blood sugar and weight but I have read there is a correlation to heart disease. So I’m watching it and trying to learn what works and what doesn’t!

Lastly is exercise. The past 1.5 years I’ve considered myself a runner. I haven’t had much success with it, from a racing/PR aspect, so I’ve stepped back from it recently. First I need to get. Back into some sort of routine as I’ve been down with a cold. Probably start on the 26th and go from there. Contrary to running long distances.This will be bodyweight exercises, kettlebells, some sprinting and a whole lot of stretching (I feel like I’m as stiff as a board most days..Sitting in a chair for 8 hours doesn’t help!)

So there you have it. With any luck it will get me where I need to be and hopefully by my 40th birthday!

Merry Christmas!

Weighing yourself sucks!

I think most of us would agree that weighing yourself sucks. Oh it’s great when the weight is going like a locamotive downhill (hello keto/low carb!) but when the scale moves up and you don’t know why it just sucks. No way around it!

Despite this issue it’s the way that we measure progress and one in which I’ll be using in this journey. But it’s not going to be my only way of measuring progress. 

The other way I intend on measuring is by watching my waist to height ratio. This number should be as close to .50 as possible. My current ratio is .57 so I have aways to go. I suspect that as this ratio improves my weight will be going down as well. If my waist goes down but my weight doesn’t it means I’m adding muscle! 

So I plan on watching my weight but I’m going to try and not focus on it as much because it can be discouraging but I think it’s a tool to use to see what works and what doesn’t! From yesterday to today I gained back 1.5 lbs! I really didn’t think I ate that.much yesterday but I probably had a bit more carbs than normal which I think made me retain water. My blood sugar was also higher than what I would like to see. 

Don’t be discouraged by the scale not showing what you want. The body, for most of us, is a mystery and we spend a lot of time trying to figure it out. Keep moving forward and get those goals!

Fit at 40?

A few years back I had my annual Dr appointment and I was diagnosed with high blood pressure. Probably a lot to do with my job at the time but that job is gone and the high blood pressure is still there. 
Per the Drs recommendation I started running. I got up to running 4 days a week and while the blood pressure came down a bit it was never consistent. A lot of it is heredity. It runs in my family. 

I feel like much of the issue with my high blood pressure has to do with carrying around extra weight. Despite all the running I did my weight varied very little. Currently I’m sitting at 223.5 which is a bit over the low I had while running which was 215.

Somewhere this fall my motivation for running went away. I believe that was a combination of turning 39 and going thru a mini bout of depression and realizing that the running was not accomplishing what I needed it to accomplish. 

So here I am at the end of the year trying to figure out where I need to go to lose some weight and hopefully get my blood pressure down and be healthy for my family. I’d like to get this all done before I turn 40.

My hope is that by posting here it will motivate me, and perhaps others who stop by, to get to where I need to be. This is going to be a fluid goal so nothing g hard and fast. The main goal is to lose weight and get my blood pressure down.